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Today while engaging in conversation, I was reminded of how much our past plays a role in who we allow ourselves to ‘be.’  No matter how wonderful the stories are that we tell of our really great families, the underlying truth of it all is, they’re just stories.  We’ve all experienced some kind of pain or shame from the people who are the ones that are suppose to create safety and love.

We are so much more than what we’ve been taught to believe we are.  At a physical level, we’re not mechanical rather we’re Organic Bio Processors.  At a spiritual level or the center of our being, we’ve been taught that we’re not ‘worthy’ of having a wonderful life because we’re really not all that special.  So the ‘being’ gets squashed and we grow up feeling & being less than what we actually are.

Words from our past surface in our adult lives and we still feel the sting.  Somehow that sting from the past never goes away.  There is no benefit to holding on to the pain and yet we have such great difficulty shaking ourselves free of it.  We run our thoughts through the intellect and run the old strategies of put up – shut up – suck it up and then ‘pretend’ that we’re all better.  But are we?

We’ve been taught so well that as long as we’re ‘doing’ something, then we’re a value to society.  Great!  But do we value who we are when we’re busy ‘doing?’  We devalue ourselves based on other peoples opinions of us .  I know that in my life, the true value of an individual comes from their ‘being,’ rather than in their ‘doing.’

Living is not about doing.  Living is about Experiencing every moment.  Once the moment has passed, we have the opportunity to relax into ourselves and ask  a question.  Did I enjoy that experience?  If yes, then I’ll more than likely do it again.  If not, I probably won’t.  Life is that simple.

Who We Are Make A Difference, not only in our lives but that of our children, our partners, co-workers and the list is long.  So I offer you this question to ponder over for yourSelf.

Are you happy being who you are in the world or have you been so busy ‘doing’ that you’ve never considered the question?

Letting Go of The past And…Creating New!

Amy

I just got off the phone with someone and I smiled, laughed and thought, “Wow, I may not be making any sense to the person whose on the other end of the phone and then I paused for a second and I know Todd is up for it.”  He has Naomi in his life and she’s clearly on my holodeck and……I’m not sure if ‘we’ should share with Todd that he’s on my holodeck as well.  Hmmm, maybe not. 

I’ve been smiling a lot, laughing a lot and yes, I’m been basking in what it’s like to be me.   It’s a friggin ball to say the least.  I’m always up for more play and am eager to do things that I’ve never done before. 

I think of the interview that I had today with CBC and it was so much fun.  I asked Tom if I may have said, “Um” too much and he laughed and said, “No, you were just great.”  We laughed the whole time and it was amazing. 

That’s my life these days.  For the past two years there has definitely been lots of acceleration in my life.  The vibration of who I am in the world has really changed over the past year and a bit and once I fully claimed that for myself, ZOOM  ZOOM. 

My life is just on high speed and so the vibration of who I am now is emanating and touching the women in my life.  Some of them have no words and are moving quite quickly.  What I know now is that because of my vibration and who I am in the world today, they will move that much quicker that I did.  And I say, Whooohooo for them. 

Being visible, being seen (which is different on my holodeck), being able to be found, simply being - I know I will be found by those searching for more in their lives.  Step Up, Step Out and giddee up lets go. 

I do not apologize for living my life in a large way.  I do not apologize for having fun and being excited pretty much every moment of every day.  I’m living my life and am experiencing everything to the fullest and I don’t know of any other way to live.    It’s a life of my choosing and I want everyone that I come in contact with to realize for themSelves that they can choose whatever they want as well.

We do create what we need/want in our lives.  So saying that, “What are you creating?”  Are you having fun with your creation or is it ’sucky?’  If you’re not enjoying yourSelf than all you have to do is choose differently.  That simple and not always that easy.

So tonight at 10pm on the National, you may catch a glimpse of me being interviewed as a Nutritional Consultant.  I shared my thoughts on a new (and apparently exciting meal) and also I shared with them that I looked at it from a WEL-Systems perspective.  Now who knows whether or not they put that in my 2 minutes or not…I know that I didn’t say it for them as much as I wanted to say/hear it for mySelf.

My life is exciting and I know that everyone can have what I experience in my life.  Imagine waking up giddy and smiling for no apparent reason?  It’s not too tough at all.  It’s kind of a cool way to like.  Oh yes, and sometimes there will simply be no words.  Trust me on that.  And that too, will be fun.

Letting Go of The Past And…Creating New.

Amy

Also take a peek at my ZOOM ZOOM blog                     http://groups.google.com/group/womengathering

About three weeks ago I sent out an email to different women.  I ’sent’ out the call and the call was answered.  My ‘dream’ (what some would call an intention – I prefer a dream) was to gather a group of women and engage in meaningful and awakening conversations.

Yesterday was the day in question where WEL-Awakened Women gathered.  Although some of these women were new to these conversations, you wouldn’t have known it to be in that room.  The room was pulsation with enlivened possibilities for each and every one of us.  As I shared with them who I AM in this world and some of the experiences over the past couple of years, there was this sense of ‘awe’ in the room.  Not only for the women present but for myself as well.  As the words came out of my mouth, I realized that this has been such an incredible journey and it doesn’t have to be hard or painful or long for that matter.

As I reflect upon yesterday, tears start to well up in my eyes.  Each and every woman there chose to invest in themSelves for and be at the pot luck not know what or how it was going to unfold.  A knowing in their bodies brought them together and I know that their lives have changed.  Each and everyone a reflection of who I am.  An aspect of my consciousness.  No words.  No words.  Just this incredible sense of  WOW!

I arrived well  before the women that were going to be there.  I create space for mySelf to revel in the magnificence of who I AM in the world and what I have created for mySelf.  Could it be possible to have such a lush and fulfilling life?  Yes.  A thousand times over.  -  And so I will share the thoughts that were captured on paper as I sat waiting for my creation to manifest before my eyes.  Ladies, I offer you my thoughts as ‘thank-you’ for being in my life.

Always in the right place at the right time. 

I now realize that I am constantly and consciously setting the stage of my own life.   What does the godforce that I AM choose to do today?  Something fun that lights me up of course. 

So here I AM sitting relaxed and waiting for the other magnificent women to join me.

Ah yes!  A life of my choosing.  I remember thinking not all that long ago, “Wouldn’t it be nice to have a life of my choosing.”  Never once did I think or believed that is exactly what I have.  No one outside of me choosing for me…unless I ‘choose’ to believe that someone could choose for me.

The foot prints of our past serve as nothing more than as an opportunity to reflect upon the journey of our life.  A reminder of where we came from.  A shadow of what was and no longer is.

As I move forward I notice the foot prints of the past now quickly disappear.  Some foot prints remain visible and make me smile.  Those are the ones that give me the strength to move forward to become more that what I am in this moment.

A sigh, a breath and what was is no longer but a thought to ponder.  What was my experience?  Did I choose what would light me up or what would keep me small?  I AM so big.  I need to consciously make big and bold choices that bring me closer to what it is that I want in my life.

I chose big and today women of such grandeur will share their life with me.  Honest, Open, Clear and Direct.  No stories.  Just a group of women standing alone ~ Together.  We are star together and alone.  Alone we twinkle.  Together we become the force which lights up the sky.

And those are the thoughts that I put down on paper before you all arrived.  The body new what was about to unfold.  I’m not waiting for the intellect to give me the slow details.  My body senses the vibration well before the manifestation appears in physical time in matter.  This IS the way I move through my world and I Love It.

I thank each and every one of you for being in my life.  My very dear friend of 15 years was there and it was magnificent to have her take part in this gathering.  My old friend of 7 months was there.  Another magnificent friend of 8 years was there.  New women unsure of what it was all about were there because they trusted the truth of their experience and listened to their body without looking to the intellect.  And Carole, who has been with me and witnessed who I was and am since starting this journey.  How magnificent is my life as I sit here in full RIG of all of you.  Respect, Integrity, Generosity.  (thank-you Louise for offering a new word with so much more meaning and power to it than Love).

Letting go of the past  and…CREATING NEW!

RIG ~ Amy

I AM the Bold Vibration for Accelerated Change.  (And I LOVE it)  

I’m not sure where to start this except to say that for my own personal evolution and for that of others …I need to press the edges.  Yours and mine.

Since this is a New Year and yet another year of personal evolution and manifestation, I need to pay attention right here right now as to what choices that I make as I move forward.

Many of you who read my posts know that I do not believe in health issues in the way that we have been taught that they exist.  My belief is that they are nothing more than the body sending messages to you to awaken to the genius of who and what you are.  Who you are and who you can become may at this point remain to be seen.  What you are is an Organic Bio Processor.  Processing and metabolizing information the same way that you process food.

As I reflect on some of the things that I’ve witnessed with clients regarding the genius of the body, it’s pretty hard not to want to press edges when I know what can happen.

I remember receiving a call from my friend a little over a year ago and she was in tears.  “I don’t know what to do?  I’m trying, I’m really trying.”  The thing is you need to start doing and stop trying. 

If I do a gentle tap dancing around the edges of what I know is possible and don’t fully engage with what I know to be the truth of my own personal experiences then not only do I limit myself but I limit the potential of the people that are in my life.  I’m no longer willing to do that even if it means that I may offend someone. 

What I discovered within the past week is that some people actually fear the thought of being healthy.  They choose not to move forward or try something different because in spite of ill health, they know what they can expect.  It’s a comfort zone.  Wow, who would have ever thought that being ill or stuck in your life would be comfortable?  As the words come out I remember not so long ago I was there and…that is no longer who I am.

As Organic Bio Processors, we are constantly processing information and we manifest fest things without realizing it.  Based on the choices we make rest assured that there is always an outcome.  Happy and proud are we to accept responsibility for our lives when we create something wonderful.  Not so happy and proud are we to even consider that we are responsible for our lives when things don’t turn out.

My belief (and the belief of many others including research scientists, cellular biologist, etc.) dis-ease is nothing more than the body sending us information.  What does it mean when something called a ‘tumor, breast cancer, heart condition’ manifests at a cellular level?  It means that we haven’t been paying attention.

In the name of love we seem to be so willing to sacrifice who we are so that others remain ‘comfortable’ with who they are and ‘accept’ who we are.  Being less is no longer an option for me.  My body tells me things and I pay attention.  I am not willing to die for you or anyone else in the world.  I will not be less so that you feel more comfortable with what comes out of my mouth.  I’m sharing this information because until we’re willing to wake up to the genius of who and what we are, we’re going to be doing a lot of pretending and not getting on with our lives in a meaningful way and we will manifest dis-ease in the tissue of our bodies because we’re not paying attention.  I for one am not willing to do that.

I reflect upon a conversation that I had with a client of mine who was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I had shared with her that every response in the body is an intelligent response and that there has to be a benefit to it.  Some may think this is pretty harsh however her response amazed me.

“I had broken my arm and my family didn’t notice me because I still had the other one to work with.  I broke my leg a few months later and they still didn’t notice me or realize how much I do for them because I was still able to get around and continue doing things for them.  So I knew that if I wanted to be noticed, I’d have to do something drastic.”

She was unaware of what she had just said.  The words came out of her mouth and the intellect was not involved so the words just came.  She spoke of the truth of her own experience.  After she realized what she had said, the tears came.  This is where it is so important to pay attention.

This information was being processed by her body and the body is the last frontier.  With the information that she provided her body, her body engaged the information and transformed the tissue. 

Although you may find this hard to believe, do you believe that your body it capable of processing information that it receives called ‘food?’  If so, maybe it’s best you pay attention to what other information that you’re providing to your body.

I used to worry about what others thought about me and the way that I view things.  However, I did not pull this information out of the ether and am no longer willing to not share the truth of my experiences with others.  I am no longer willing to watch people die because I may offend them with what I have to say.  What if I share this information and their tumors disappear (which I have witnessed)?  What if people who come to see me end up with a different understanding about the genius of the body?  What if I had information that I could share with you that could change your health and your life?  And what if I didn’t share it with you?  I personally would be pissed off that someone wasn’t willing to share information with me that could change my life or health.

I Am the Bold Vibration for Accelerated Change and I’m not willing to be less.  I offer a different perspective on health issues that possibly could change your life.  I say possibly because what you do with the information that I share with you is entirely up to you.  I do not claim responsibility for others and there was a day when I did and those days are gone.  I recently shared with a client that there were times in my life (actually years) that were pretty shitty and it wasn’t until I looked in the mirror and said “thank-you” that my life started to change. 

Our lives unfold based on the choice that we make in our lives.  I’m very clear now and I wasn’t before, that those times in my life that weren’t very meaningful - I created myself based on the choices that I made.  I believe that as we make choices we gain ‘experience’ from the outcome.  It’s nothing more than information and what we do with it is entirely up to us.  So I know that with the experience of having those ‘not so pleasant’ times in my life, I now know what it’s like to feel Fully Alive and excited about my life.  I would not know Fully Alive unless I had experienced ‘not’ Fully Alive.

Our bodies are genius.  We need to pay attention to what is going on in our lives/bodies and be honest with the people in our lives.  Share with them the truth of what you experience instead of pulling in on yourself.  Remember that the body is the last frontier and that the information you provide is being processed by your body.   No one knows what is going on in your life/body except you.  And consider that you don’t know what’s going on in another person’s life/body except them.  Your opinion of their lives will be based only on your internal landscape, not theirs.

Letting Go of the Past And…Growing Forward.

Amy