The pain and guilt from the past
As I continue to engage with clients, it’s clear to me that the pain and the guilt from our past if not seen through new lenses – will manifest into some kind of disease in the body. And I speak from experience. If we choose to continue to look at our illnesses as something that is heredity or ‘caught’ from someone else, we will never rightfully claim the pain and the shame that we continue to carry forward. I’m all about moving forward or “Growing Forward” but as I move and grow forward, it is with new awareness of how much our past makes an impact on our health and our life.
In my line of business I meet so many incredible people and some who cannot see the incredible gift that they are to others. And I know this to be true for it is one of the many experiences that I’ve held in my own body and some which I continue to hold. Perhaps I still hold onto some because there is still so much to learn and so I welcome each and every opportunity that I create for myself to learn and experience life/health through new lenses.
The way I move through my world now has nothing to do with coincidence. We learn from our past how to choose differently to create a different outcome. And should we continue to move through the present with only our experience/knowledge of the past without any changes, we create the same (possibly) miserable lives that we continue to bitch and complain about. And there is intelligence to all of it. The past is a great ‘tool’ or ‘model’ for me to use when I look at what I already know and the outcome that it has provided. It is up to me to choose differently to create the outcome that I would prefer. There is no one outside of me that can ‘fix’ my life or my health. I am the key to my own creations. And what I choose to create is something different than what I already have had.
How do we choose to become parents? We look at our past and remember our own experiences of what ‘felt’ good and what didn’t. Our past is there as a tool to use as a reference and nothing more. And how do we come sick? We look at our past and remember our experience of what felt good and what didn’t. And as we bring our pain, guilt, fear, shame etc., forward with us – we create an outcome of what we all have to to be familiar with as ‘dis-ease.’
It is no mistake to me that I am here today. I was not a mistake. I was someone’s creation/intention to bring someone into the world that would make a difference in other people’s lives. Someone that would be kind and patient with them when others would give them the time of day or were too busy to listen to.
A friend of mine said something to me and it vibrated through my whole body and now I know why.
“How much better can it be - than being yourself?” So, How much better can it be for me than being mySelf? The answer is simple, “There is nothing better than me being me” because then I allow others to know that it’s the greatest gift the I/they can give myself/ourselves and the people that we love.
We are all so incredible and it’s not enough for others to tell us, we have to know it with every ounce of our being.
Letting Go Of The Past AND…Growing Forward.
Amy
p.s. A special thanks to my client who reminded me how incredible we all truly are.
